This week I finally saw some results on the scale. I have lost 3 lbs. I have noticed that my body was changing from all the weightlifting I have been doing, and because I have been building muscle it is natural for me not to lose any weight as muscle weighs more than fat. I have been trying to be patient, but I still can't really fit into even my size 10's yet, at least not without great shame.
I am beginning to accept the reality that I will not be able to meet all my goals in my Butts vs. Guts competition with Ben. I have only been able to run 2 miles in 19 minutes as my best time, I do NOT have visible abs (but they are beginning to flatten back out), I will NOT be in a size 8, and I will NOT weigh 145 by our deadline of August 24. I am working my butt off (literally), going to the gym sometimes 2x a day 4-5 times a week AND running several times a week, but losing 15 lbs in 8 weeks is unrealistic unless you are going to resort to unhealthy measures. I am nursing, so that isn't an option even if I wanted it to be. Well, at least I can feel good in knowing that I am doing my best, and results are starting to show. I'll have to make new goals (just for me) and get ready to be skiing on our Christmas vacation instead of spending time in our new hot tub.
I'm not giving up though! No matter how long it takes me, I WILL lose this weight and feel healthy again!