The musings of ME:
SAH mother of 3 kids, spouse of a doctor-in-residency, caretaker and teacher of random children.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Working Hard

This week I finally saw some results on the scale. I have lost 3 lbs. I have noticed that my body was changing from all the weightlifting I have been doing, and because I have been building muscle it is natural for me not to lose any weight as muscle weighs more than fat. I have been trying to be patient, but I still can't really fit into even my size 10's yet, at least not without great shame.

I am beginning to accept the reality that I will not be able to meet all my goals in my Butts vs. Guts competition with Ben. I have only been able to run 2 miles in 19 minutes as my best time, I do NOT have visible abs (but they are beginning to flatten back out), I will NOT be in a size 8, and I will NOT weigh 145 by our deadline of August 24. I am working my butt off (literally), going to the gym sometimes 2x a day 4-5 times a week AND running several times a week, but losing 15 lbs in 8 weeks is unrealistic unless you are going to resort to unhealthy measures. I am nursing, so that isn't an option even if I wanted it to be. Well, at least I can feel good in knowing that I am doing my best, and results are starting to show. I'll have to make new goals (just for me) and get ready to be skiing on our Christmas vacation instead of spending time in our new hot tub.

I'm not giving up though! No matter how long it takes me, I WILL lose this weight and feel healthy again!


Kirsten said...

that's the spirit!! It's all about healthy, and guys ALWAYS lose more than girls... especially after having a baby! Keep up your good hard work! PROUD OF YOU :)

Robin said...

You are going great. I will miss learning from you and your lessons. I really enjoyed them

Shana said...

I know it is hard, but don't be too hard on yourself.
I know you- and I'm sure you look beautiful- you always do!
It is hard when our bodies morf into something they didn't used to be after child birth. Sometimes we can't really control that.
You are right- you are working hard, eating healthy, and feeling good. That is the MOST IMPORTANT part. Part of me thinks once you've relaxed a little on yourself, and don't stress so much to meet a certain # of pounds lost by the end of August, you'll start to loose more. I think stressing TOO MUCH tends to slow the process down. (in my case that is how it was)
Good luck- I'm proud of you girl!

I have a good life said...

Great job....keep up the great work and I am proud you are doing it the right way....not the fast way. You will be so much healthier. I don't think we are in the same ward anymore. :( I will miss you a lot. You are so amazing. I feel I haven't seen you in forever and I miss you.