The musings of ME:
SAH mother of 3 kids, spouse of a doctor-in-residency, caretaker and teacher of random children.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

My Daydream Before Sleep

Tonight I was trying to go to sleep and my mind wandered and I had to write it down or I'd forget.

I was walking on a path. I knew it wasn't the right path for my destination, but I didn't care. I chose the path, but I suspected it was taking me away from where I was supposed to go. I stayed on it. I knew there was another path, a better path that was for sure going to take me where I was supposed to go, but I wasn't sure how to get to it and I knew it would be difficult if I tried to. I decided not to try. I kept walking on the path I had chosen, but the way became wet and muddy. My feet stuck in the mud with every step, but I kept walking. It got dark and I couldn't see far ahead of me anymore, but still I kept walking. Then, when it became most difficult for me to continue walking, I fell into a dark, muddy hole. I was stuck. I couldn't get out by myself. The hole was too deep.

Being stubborn as I am, I was determined to climb myself out. I tried several ways to get out, but all of them failed. Suddenly I felt very alone and the enormity of the situation became unbearable and for a moment, I gave up. Then I heard a voice above me telling me how to get out. I wasn't alone after all! I had to make an effort to follow the directions I was being given, and a few times I slid back into the hole a little, but I kept trying. The voice stayed with me, encouraging me, and I kept following the directions until I was most of the way out of the hole and then a hand reached out and helped me the rest of the way up. The voice had saved me!

He helped me find the right path, the path I should have chosen in the first place, and he stayed with me. It got light again and this path was easier to walk upon. I wasn't alone on this path. People I loved walked with me, and as long as I stayed on this path, my Savior never left me. He was always right there walking beside me, giving me directions to my destination.

I never wanted to leave my path again because I knew that other path was out there, and if I didn't follow directions, I might accidentally stumble upon it again and become lost or even fall back into the hole. On this path I was safe.


Natalie said...

That's quite a dream. It sure teaches a great lesson. It's like your own personal revelation. Awesome.

I have a good life said...

She said it...Awesome!